Coming out of darkness
By: Navin (August 29th, 2009)
Hi Tizzy,
You might be wondering why I walked out of our relationship and how it all came to an abrupt end. Well, for me it was never a relationship in the first place but just a ‘one minute stand’ that we used to share every now and then when we had nobody else to hook up with on that day. I would like to say that I have been bailed out for one lasting relationship.
Let’s face it buddy, homosexuality, is not a sustainable way of life. And I am writing this letter to mirror to you the deviant life we were living, about which I have been convicted in my heart. I have been able to ponder on the things that we used to so masterfully present to the world. We told the world that it was the ‘way we were born’ and that it was all in our genes. But if it were about the genes should it not have been equally prevalent in every culture. But we hardly find them in many cultures. And then we used to tell everybody that this was how we were ‘sexually oriented’ but all these arguments have been dumped because we all know that it was more to do about the environments we were brought up in and our cognitive development and less about the biology. Many of us were sexually abused and exploited by pedophiles and now we do the same to many more. Many of us were so much on the sexual overdrive that all the pornography and natural relations with women no more satisfied us, we needed another sexual high. We were crazy for the relationships that had no strings attached and where commitment was least sought after.
You also know how every one of us had not less than eight partners other than our room mates. Every year we are indulging ourselves with twenty to a hundred different people. And hundreds more over a lifetime that is becoming ever so short. Gays and lesbians are dying faster than their heterosexual counterparts, because we are so naïve and unaware about the sexual status of the person we are sleeping with. We end up being terminated by illnesses like AIDS, Hepatitis and Syphilis. I still remember how every night I would be overcome by my sadistic nature and go looking for anonymous sexual liaisons in bath houses around the city. Don’t remember how many I encountered and those faces I hardly am able to recollect. Except for one man whom I met one day, who told me to stay away, he had contracted an STD (Sexually Transmitted disease). He was married to a fine young lady and also had a small kid. He was angry that he had taken it home and given it over to his unsuspecting wife also. Can you believe how many lives we are crushing under our lustful desires? And yet we do not stop from being a maniac looking for young men whom we can exploit under the guise of being teachers and Boy Scout leaders. We have like parasites entered in to the fabric of the society and slowly eating away at expense of an indifferent and insensitive society.
That takes me to something more organized and more dangerous. We are spreading our tentacles on the society, our mentors and leaders ask us to make the society more and more indifferent to the issue of homosexuality. They ask us to be involved in more rallies, more talk shows, more of the print and electronic media. ‘Exhibitionism’ is the call of the day, showing of your love and affection in broad daylight, being not ashamed of yourself, a ‘coming out’ is what they are asking for. They want to project that more and more people are identifying with our philosophy of life. We are a small community now but we will make it big one day. The day the society and the legal system are desensitized and stop reacting emotionally, but just as another way of life, our battle for equal and greater rights is won.
Rights to marry, to adopt children, to equality in workplaces and job opportunities. But what kind of a home are we offering to these children. One where violence is more common than and twice as dangerous as any other normal home. A family that does not stand together for more that 18 months. Yes those are statistics that I am quoting which you would like to know more off. Our homes are characterized by drunken behavior, drug abuse and frequent deaths due to murders, diseases, suicides and traffic accidents which are more common among us than any other group of people. What is it that we are offering these innocent children?
I would like to define my tryst with homosexuality in two words, unhappy and unfulfilled. Every day was a free fall in to a bottomless pit and I desperately wanted somebody to stop this free fall. I went to the man whom we beat up on the streets that day who was airing his Christian values. I was afraid because we believed that “The teaching that only male-female sexual activity within the bounds and constraints of marriage is the only acceptable form should be reason enough for any homosexual to denounce the Christian religion”. But I found my purpose that day.
He showed how wrong I was but yet there is only one person who ever took the stand for sinners of this world that was Jesus Christ. HE is ready to accept us despite our past but we have to go to HIM on HIS terms. And why not, HE died for me and removed my sins ‘as far as the east is from the west’ and more than that HE rose again promising me that if I believed on HIM he will give me eternal life. Where else can you and I go to wash our hands that are stained with blood and filth? As much as I was overwhelmed by HIS mercy I was also warned of a coming wrath if I don’t turn from my ways.
The Bible says ‘Do you not know that the wicked will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived: Neither the sexually immoral nor idolaters nor adulterers nor male prostitutes nor homosexual offenders nor thieves nor the greedy nor drunkards nor slanderers nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God. And that is what some of you were. But you were washed, you were sanctified, you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God.’
Yes, I have been washed, sanctified and justified in the name of Jesus. I throw this challenge to you also. God loves you and calls you back? How will you respond today?
Love and prayers,
Kenny.
Tags: Aids, bisexual, Born that way, Gays, Hepatitis, hetrosexual, Homosexuality, Lesbians, masochism, pedophiles, sadistic, sexual orientation, STD, Syphilis, transvestite
September 2nd, 2009 at 10:32 am
Excellent one navin, Everybody thinks and have a feeling that homosexuality is God given and its on that premise they tend to claim whatever they’re claiming. Actually i think they’re just hiding their real reasons by a cover calling it God. Now they’re demanding their rights and trying to get into our society as a “different” identity. I think its just one more way of fashioning oneself to the world to say, “yeah man i’m different from the world”. But i wonder when the trends will increase and their will be many people adopting it will it remain different then?!! Its dangerous to think what will people take up nexty for being different.
September 2nd, 2009 at 10:45 am
There is a God-shaped vacuum in every heart..and people try to fill it with all sorts of things. But nothing, absolutely nothing can fit and fill in that vacuum except God and that’s precisely why such things can/ will never satisfy. Sooner of later everyone will discover this fact.
September 2nd, 2009 at 2:30 pm
Deviation form normality is alway abnormal in long terms. LUST , SEXULITY, DESIRE , DRUGS are like entropy of the stable system if not controlled lead to system disintegration. The most necessary aspact of life is that God, Parent , relegion , Group , society etc are enablers that control these deviations arising from age and quest of new experience or to be different. But Today all these enablers needs treatment to control them……thats sad but it not far we will have stages in society beyond homogenity , cloninng , cross DNA and may be entirely new species…But for individual let take it that control ourselves then family , friends and society from deviations though there is thin line of demarcation on deviations but that thin line is quite segmented if you have spects of GOD….