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Shekhar,

This letter is as good as an SOS call. I am leaving this at your parents place because I knew no other place I could track you. Although I shared a few things with your parents but I hope this letter will help you to know the whole story. It’s not about me, my health, your career or anything else but it’s about our son Rahul.

You had left his life when he was only one year old. Ever since then your contact with him were few and far in between. You met him sometimes at the boarding school and sometimes on the telephone on his birthdays. Other than that your relationship with him has been anything but normal. I still remember when we split in the courtroom. We both were adamant on getting a divorce while our son slept in my hands oblivious to the fact that his family life was slipping through those tiny fingers.

Since then whenever those fingers needed help it was only me who had become his only support. When he needed to walk with his fathers fingers, when he needed to learn to ride the bicycle or whether it was on the day when he won a medal at the school annual days his eyes searched for you and I could see that he was missing somebody. I knew it was you but I was bent on proving myself. I thought that I was more than capable of filling the gap that you had left. Single parenting was the way I thought was best for my son. I told him that I was his mother and father. It was easy to say that but I failed terribly somewhere.

As he began to grow up I needed to meet the expenses and that kept me busy with my work. And he was left at play schools and eventually at boarding schools for long periods. I thought that I was doing the best for him. I sent him to the best schools, gave him the best personal tutors, handsets to keep in touch with me, iPOD’s to keep him entertained and bikes to satisfy his youthful desires. But soon all that began to keep him away from me. He had become a loner at home, some rowdy friends were at best his company and other indulgences which I could not stop him from.

Suddenly one day, my dear son who searched for all the love that he needed in me had become a rebel. There was nobody to discipline him, counsel him and nobody to put a shoulder around him and tell him about the challenges of life. I guess that is when I realized that single parenting was not the best option and I could never fill your gap.

Yesterday, the principal had called me and told me that he had brutally assaulted and bruised some of his juniors in college. I went there and saw that my son had self destructed. He was thrown out of college, my dreams of seeing him grow in life were all of a sudden shattered and I got no mercy from the principal or the aggrieved parents. I was running pillar to post to get him out of the clutches of the police.

After staying there for some days, today I have finally brought him back home. But it will not be complete till I call you back home. I missed you, so did your son. If you are missing both of us today I want to tell you that we both need your help, those strong shoulders to carry us through these tough moments. We are on the brink of collapse and I am afraid that our son will take some foolish step. Today I got in to an argument with him and in a fit of rage, he almost slit my throat with a kitchen knife.

I know it will not be too easy. He is not going to accept your authority after all these years but we can try……

Come back.

Yours Truly,

Asha.

Tags: single parenting

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